Weights...cardio...weights...cardio...weights...cardio! Heart pumping! It's perplexing that the workout begins with trainer saying, "I saw this workout once. I've never done it. I kinda want to see how it works." Are you kidding me? Then he wants to know why I was so quiet? I couldn't catch my breath long enough to form words. Not to mention, I think I was having a lack of oxygen to the brain and couldn't even form thoughts! I came home and collapsed. I was nauseous and my heart was still beating really hard 45 minutes after the workout.
I did have to draw the line tonight. We went outside at the end and I was reading his mind. I knew he wanted me to run up the hill. However, there were people sitting down there. I wasn't going to do it. I still have this fear of running. I have to overcome it. I know I do. I was doing so well until I hurt my foot and couldn't run for a while. Now it's total regression. I didn't have the confidence to run THE HILL in front of people. NO WAY! So he found another hill. It was a cruddy run. Wishing I would have hit it a little harder. Oh well...at that moment in time I thought I was going to collapse. I'm going to make it my goal to run at least 10 minutes each time I workout on my own. That's what I have to do. It can't be an option. NO EXCUSES! That would be 50 minutes of running a week. I think I can...I think I can...I think I can...
I would love to type more, but I must read this stuff for class so I can start my paper.
I know exactly how you feel doing things in front of people. I would have said no way too! You are doing great honey and keep up the good work!
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