I've always wanted to have a blog just never had a reason. I'm about to start a new journey and thought my accountability would be raised if I made it public. I've tried every weight loss plan and gimmick out there. It's the same story you hear everywhere...I've lost, but ended up gaining more back in the end.
I've decided to make a drastic decision because my weight is in the way of everything. Yes, I've been told these feelings are irrational. Doesn't matter...they are still my feelings and they are my reality. Disgust is what I see when I look in the mirror. I can't imagine how others must view me.
When I think back I've been concerned about my weight since I was young. I remember two times in my life when I felt okay with myself. I don't think I had ever reached a goal weight, but was satisfied.
I've tried diets where you eat for one day and don't eat the next. Most recently, I ordered these HCG drops and dropped to 500 calories a day which made me so sick, weight didn't matter. 7 pounds down in 5 days. I'm not sure it was the 500 calories which created success as much as the colon cleansing if you get what I mean. I've joined Weight Watchers, but if you are only going to weigh in each week and not completely follow the program you don't see success.
Already by posting on FB about my trainer...which you will hear about in the next post...people are supporting and encouraging me. This helps. It is truly going to take a lot of emotional support to make this work. After all, I am an emotional eater. Oh and not just when I am sad or worried, but when I am happy, excited, hurried, frustrated, stressed, angry...I'll eat for any reason.
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