My Wheat Connection

I've learned a lot in the past month about my connection with wheat. I can now say I am 85-90% wheat free and probably 80% grain free. I shared what happened when I eliminated grain and then binged with two donuts. After that day, I went grain free for 14 days. It was suggested by Michelle (I refer to Michelle as a friend and my nutrition coach, she was also the instructor of my bootcamp) that after being grain free we reintroduce grains one at a time to discover what the impact was on our body. Michelle's research has found that we have different reactions to grains which might impact food cravings. So after being grain free, I tried having a serving of corn on the cob. I found that corn has a mild impact on me. On a food craving scale of 1-10, with 10 being I have to have this right now or I'm going to harm someone and 1 being I could care less, corn might put me at a level 2 or 3. Wheat is a different story. When I eat wheat my food cravings might be an exponential 10. Here is an example: I had eaten clean all day last Friday. That evening my husband and I were having bacon, lettuce, and tomato sandwiches for dinner. Previously, I have done bacon and tomato wrapped in lettuce to avoid the bread. Last week, I decided to have the bread to see what would happen. The rest of the evening I wanted food. I didn't want the fruit that was in the fridge. I wanted ice cream. I wanted it badly. My husband popped microwave popcorn. I wanted it too. The cravings were all consuming. Foods I don't normally think about would pop into my head. Chips and cheese dip, cake, brownies, ice cream, fried food. I was exhausted by the time I went to bed from the crazy cravings. This same phenomenon has happened each time I've had wheat. I now realize there is a connection. I should be receiving the book Wheat Belly in the mail next week. I need to know more. Knowledge is power...right? Thank You, Michelle for helping me learn about what wheat does to one's body. I can't wait to learn more. I've learned a few other things along the way. I'm pretty sure if I went to someone who deals with eating disorders I am somewhere on the spectrum. I am not concerned about it at this point because I have become aware of it and I am not going to give it any power. When eating grain free that was the only thing I was supposed to focus on. I was supposed to eat when I was hungry. The problem became that I could go 8 or 9 hours without becoming hungry. Then it was time for dinner and I was famished. I knew this couldn't be right. I also knew that if I felt a little hungry, I ignored it because food scares me. I don't trust it. If you ignore feeling a little hungry and you drink water you can overcome the feelings of hunger for a good while. As so frequently happens, I stepped into Sonya's office at my gym. It's almost like a confessional in there sometimes. I said, "Sonya, I think I have a problem." I explained my fear of food and the amount of time I went without eating. Being ever so wise, Sonya explained her eating schedule to me. Eat within the first hour of getting up and then every two to three hours throughout the day. Like a machine. Set an alarm on your phone to remind you. Quite truthfully, I will get so busy trying to get things done that I don't even think about eating. The alarm works well. My husband tried to find the ringtone of "Feed Me Seymour" but we never did find it. He thought it would be great for this alarm. Sonya told me that when she gets to work and it's time to eat her banana she is so excited that she gets to eat the banana. I found this a little odd and didn't think I would probably get excited about eating a banana. I mean I can get excited about a piece of cake or ice cream or cheeseburgers and fries, but a banana? Here is what I have learned since eating throughout the day: When the 10:00 alarm went off this morning I was soooo freaking excited to eat my banana! I actually feel hungry throughout the day. I am hungry when I wake up in the mornings. I am content with eating throughout the day. I feel as though my metabolism is higher because I'm actually feeling hungry and feeding my body. Thank You, Sonya! I have not been on the scales recently. I am focused on doing the right thing. I do think that I'm going to do a little "temperature check" next week. I'm going to write down everything I'm eating and the calories that go with it. I just want to see how many calories I'm consuming to know if I'm in the right range. I do not have intentions of becoming a calorie counter (unless I'm way off and then I might need to). I just need to figure out where I am.