The Trainer "Brought It"!

I met with my trainer on Sunday morning. It's Wednesday night and my arms are still on fire. I do NOT like assisted pull ups. I do not like them at all! All day today I've had to stretch my arm by applying force. I had lost range of motion and doing the simplest tasks resulted in pain. I don't think this part of my arm has ever hurt before. Our first two workouts we had done a mix of exercises some stable and some not. This time we did everything on the free weights. I wasn't feeling well and Trainer had the same crud. I knew I wasn't on my best game, but I think the part of him that wasn't feeling well went into crazy man mode. I told him before the first session that I was paying him for challenges so "bring it!" He told me to be careful what I wished for. Obviously, he "brought it!" on Sunday. From this point forward, I will probably be nervous before our workouts. Pain is weakness leaving the body...right? If that's the case bring the pain and let me embrace it, my goal is to become strooonnnggggeeerrrr!

I did miss Monday and Tuesday workouts this week. A sinus/upper respiratory infection does not lend itself well to going to the gym. I came home early from work on Monday and slept. I stayed all day yesterday, but didn't feel well and was cranky. I was trying to keep my crankiness to myself, but much to my dismay it came out in a wrath to two of my closest friends late in the day. I felt so bad. We had just found out that another of our very dear friends had been diagnosed for the second time with breast cancer. It was that news that put me over the edge. The pre workout Bunchy would have not connected the dots. However, I did connect the dots rather quickly. I hadn't worked out in two days and I wasn't having any stress relief. I came home last night and got my workout clothes ready. I was waiting for the alarm this morning when it went off. I did think I was going to pass out on the stepper this morning. My cough was triggered. My heart rate went higher than it should. Sweat was dripping off of me. Yet, I did my 30 minutes of cardio and my 30 minutes of strength training sans assisted pull ups. Now my legs are sore and I'm good with that. Might as well have balanced soreness...upper and lower body! Truly, exercise does keep me much calmer. It keeps me in check. There are times when I feel really stressed and think "I've got to get to the gym! I've got to get an extra workout in!" There are other times like yesterday when it rears it's ugly head and smacks me in the face "GET OVER BEING SICK AND GET BACK AT IT!" (Thank God for understanding friends who realize sometimes you unleash your emotions on those you love the most because you know they will be there for you. They then call and check on you and help you process through your day. Thank God for friends like AW and LB!) After making such a big deal out of eating in last week's entry, I better not avoid it this week. The food journal looked better to Trainer. He was pleased. I was getting my calories in and keeping my proteins and carbs where they need to be. I'm just going to tell you right now, I haven't journaled since Saturday because I have had no appetite. I haven't felt like eating. Today was the first day I actually ate three meals. Yes, Brandon, I know I need 6. That's tomorrow's goal. I did post some great ideas for breakfast on my FB page. If you all have ideas for what you do for breakfast I would love to hear it. Please share. Above all else, this is a process. Sometimes, it's more painful than others. Make sure you are setting a fitness goal each day. Working out in the mornings isn't my favorite thing to do. In order to make that happen, I have to get the clothes, shoes, and socks laid out the night before. I cannot leave myself any excuses. I have to be ready to roll or it won't happen. I don't know if I've shared these before, but it won't hurt...