TWO Donuts

Last week I went through a bootcamp regarding nutrition and emotional eating. The first day (4.5 hours) was about nutrition and fitness and the second day (4.5 hours) was about emotional eating. During the first day I learned a lot of new stuff. I was challenged to go 14 days grain free. The premise of this challenge is that eating grain, especially wheat, is really not so healthy and that anything processed has some form of grain in it. Grains are disguised by many different names in an ingredient list. Processed foods actually increase food cravings and have so many unhealthy things in them, they could be referred to as poison. Our instructor/coach challenged us to eat clean and give up grains and processed foods for 14 days to get all of this yuck out of our system. At the end of 14 days we will start trying out grains, with the exception of wheat, to see how our bodies react. Yesterday, my family had a garage sale at my parent's house about an hour away. I left my house at 4:30 in the morning. Of course since I am the one who drives right by Dunkin Donuts I offered to pick them up on my way. I packed my own food. The challenge started on Thursday and all the way to my parents I was thinking that it hadn't even been 72 hours and I already felt like I could tell a difference. I was so proud of myself for thinking ahead and packing both breakfast and lunch. Wouldn't you know that while we were experiencing a two hour rain delay (before we even started) and everyone was loving the donuts, I decided that just one wouldn't hurt. Have you ever eaten 1 donut and stopped when there were plenty more? No, me either. TWO donuts and 45 minutes later I felt so sick. I'm not talking emotionally. I'm talking physically. Like couldn't leave the bathroom kind of sick. Paired with the emotional guilt of not lasting longer than 72 hours before breaking my challenge, the physical pain was more than enough evidence for me to continue this experiment. By experiment I am talking about seeing what kind of physical effects I experience by not having grain in my diet. I've had several people share with me that they have eliminated wheat from their diet and could not believe the difference it made in the way they felt. Don't think there was not emotional pain that went along with the physical effects of my decision. At the end of the day, I was trying to decide if I was going to share this news with anyone or not. However, one of my goals (developed as a result of last week's bootcamp) is to be more active in my personal growth which includes this blog. (Keeping this blog is a form of accountability for me and I need to use it more to that advantage.)Hence, I decided to come clean and share. If the choice to eat TWO donuts was not so ridiculous, it might be comical. I mean seriously...I've spent the entire last week working on goals related to what I learned at my bootcamp. I was gung ho! I was enjoying the effects for a short while! I was so proud of myself! My instructor/coach had spent a long time talking about having no relationship with food and using it only as fuel. I had said one of the hardest obstacles for me is social situations. Of course, I'm a social butterfly so there are lots of those in my world. I had a plan to eat healthy. Yet, I had a talk with myself that went something like this..."You got up so early. You are with your family. You have done so good. This won't hurt that much and it will be easy to get back on track. Even Michelle said if you fall of the wagon get back on." I'm very convincing to myself. So I'm going to be practicing the following script: "You deserve to feel and be healthy. You are the one in control. You have the power not the food. Nothing ever tastes as good as being healthy feels." Yes! I'm going to practice that script so the next time I feel tempted I will already have the answer. I'm not down on myself today. I'm happy that I can be in charge. I'm also happy that I can share all of this with you! By sharing my decision to go grain free for 14 days, I am not implying everyone should do it. This is a new trail on my journey. I'll let you know what I encounter! If you want to read more about the effects of wheat, take a look at this article: http://www.realfarmacy.com/why-80-of-people-worldwide-will-soon-stop-eating-wheat/ And if you want to know more about my amazing instructor/coach...check her out on FB at Bikini Mindest https://www.facebook.com/bikinimindset